i just want to tell you i really do appreciate you,
and you fascinate me.
thank you, for everything

I hate waking up from dreams like this.

i wish i did something with my life,
i wish i cared about something.
all i want to do is smoke, cruise, and sleep
and to be with you ...

I think everyone has a certain part of their life where they truly wish they could freeze time, whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop, the world would stop turning and people would stop changing, because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

Lately, I've realized that all I really need is somebody who will
listen to my bullshit,
call me out on my bullshit,
and love me despite my bullshit

honestly, do you realize how easy it is to tell you anything and everything?
i find myself telling you things that no one else knows, and i can't stop it.

it makes me feel so vulnerable and exposed.
and it's terrifying.

and honestly, how do you always know when i need you?

how do you always come back into my life right when i need you the most?

it's crazy, and comforting.

everything about you is comforting.

and i'm starting to realize that i don't want to live my life without you in it anymore.

I do understand the impulse.The impulse to put your hand out and want someone to be there at the end of your reach. To want someone to be close to. To want to kiss or touch even if it’s wrong. The point is you can’t control these feelings. Even if they’re wrong, they’re there.They’re always there.

You know how every now and then, you have a moment where your whole life stretches out ahead of you like a forked road, and even as you choose one gritty path, you’ve got your eye on the other the whole time, certain that you’re making a mistake?
-My Sister’s Keeper

say anything

i wish i knew what i wanted.
i wish i knew what you wanted.
i wish it wasn't so easy for me to convince myself of things.
i wish i could climb inside your head and see what makes you tick,
see how the world appears to you,
see what you think of me.
i wish i was better at putting my thoughts into words.
i wish i had the courage to say these words to you.
but most of all, i just wish that i could take all your pain away.